Friendship lost

When my youngest child was a brand new baby, about 12 years ago (gee I am getting old!) I met a lady who was living in poverty out on the desert with her husband who was 10 years her senior. I was asked to take her a meal since she had just had a miscarriage. I knew vaguely who she was but I had never met her. When I arrived at her home, my baby was screaming to nurse and since I was far from home, I asked this lady if she would mind letting me come in and sit awhile so I could feed my baby. That was the beginning of a treasured friendship. After time we came to trust each other and she left her husband and went to Twin Falls to continue her education. She served a work mission, got an associate degree and then went on to Boise to for her bachelors degree. During all this time we developed a deep friendship and she was part of our family, coming to reunions and being accepted as an aunt to my children and sister in law to my husband. Even my brothers, sisters and parents regarded her as one of us. Three years ago I was planning a family reunion to coincide with the blessing of my first grandchild. My friend was not planning on attending but I told her my brother and his wife, who live in California, were very disappointed they were not going to get to see her. She finally decided she would come but something happened. I honestly do not know what, but she left a message on my phone saying she had been having unresolved issues with me for some time and could not longer deal with me or my family. She has not spoken to me since. My children were heartbroken, especially the youngest, who cannot understand.. Everyone is mystified by this. I cannot express my own feelings..I miss her every single day! I have grieved this loss more than I could ever have imagined! I have gone through some of the most difficult experiences of my life without my friend. A friend who always promised to be there no matter what. It has tested my ability to trust. I am fairly certain that my trust is in many ways permanently damaged. I am writing about this now because lately she has been making comment on face book to my older daughters. She even mentioned how much she misses me. Wow! It is so odd. It is kind of like thinking someone is dead and finding them walking across the street like nothing ever happened. I don't really know how to feel, I only know....it is not good. I wonder if she has the right to tell my daughter she misses me. I am not sure I care, or is it I care too much? Trust was something I give reluctantly, I am a bit skittish that way. I gave her my total trust eventually... it turns out it she didn't honor that gift. I gave it all to her already. I don't have any left. I made a promise to her before we were born, that I would find her and help her. I kept my promise....with a lot of help from Heavenly Father. Maybe in the next life trust will be mended. By myself I am helpless to get past this sorrow and betrayal. For now I will leave that to Heavenly Father.